its just a game. a game i played with all i have. but yeah. it will end sooner or later. i am still the bastard. and.. i guess, all that i am getting right now is my retributions. i shouldnt feel surprised. i should know i dont even deserve a look from you. for a moment, i think falling in love to stuffs that cant move or talk is the best. my guitar, accompanied me whenever i am super down. though i am playing the same thing over and over again. it will complain. it accompanied me all the way. sigh. and now i sound retarded. what the fuck. i felt it just now. was damn pissed. but i guess, even though on my side not 100% of the mission is completed, but over your side. i think it have taken effect already. my screwed up english. argh. just wana rant here. how deep did i fell? why am i feeling so much pain. it wasnt like that. i knew i wont succeed. i dont mind suffering. but, why so soon. so sudden. so this is how it feels. my tears. i feel fucking dumb. but, feel happy for the 4 a hurt. someone took revenge for them.
i wish to be isolated from everyone. i am a goner.