KARMA
Thursday, May 31, 2007 ;
went to eat with mum and dad and swensen today. no camera phone to take pictures. SIANS!!! ate quite alot. then headed to play pool. LOL. quite fun lah. we xialan to each another whenever we score.

for the first time. i did what i said. but, its really disappointing. really. its very very disappointing.

i am like a free gift.

but now then i realised what is the truth.

i miss you. its really dead. =))

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FUCK THAT CHIBYE UNCLE! nabei. seriously. call yourself a man? do your have balls? maybe its your balls that made you liddat. seriously, i curse you. I HATE YOU THIS KIND OF FUCKING UNCLES! pervert like no fucking business. disgrace to man-kind. you should be castrated!! hope you run down by lorry tomorrow. REST IN PEACE!

Tuesday, May 29, 2007 ;
oh man. zacson is back to his loner life. not as in loner. for some reason, i am just trying to trap myself inside myself. i dont feel like talking. i dont feel like doing anything.

yesterday had the chinese O level paper. seriously, i think i flunk it. both paper 1 and 2. my standard of chinese is just too low le lah. GRR. actually my standard for everything is low. hahahaha. since when mr zacson does something good? like my mum said. i am just like a can of pepsi cola. when the can is open. the gas is so full. then as time pass, the gas would be gone. its like i does alot of things with alot of passion in the beginning but will soon lost the drive for it. quite true lah. i am like that. SIGH. MUST CHANGE! but, i like to do too many things. i dont know what i should really do..... WALAO!


then went to watch Next. wanted to watch spider-man 3. but too many people le lehs. so watched Next loh. over all the movie quite nice lah. BUT! the ending seriously pissed me off. the whole theatre when WALAO when we found out that the whole movie is about the future that the main character was seeing. LOL. but i like the part when the character "siams" all the bullets shot at him. SUPER SHUAI! hahaha. like matrix. hahahahahahahahahaha.

i like this quote in the movie.... If you can wait, I will find you. HAHAHAHA. so sweet!


was freaked out on the way home. eeeeeeeeew. thinking back my hair stands. *shivers*



today was shit seriously. i sat there for 2 hours doing nothing. practically i was sleeping. i got NOTHING to do. seriously. all the maths questions i dont know how to do. Mrs Ng came and help me during the last 15 minutes of lesson though. gave me notes. THANKS!!!! =)) hmm. i really am slowly turning into a full-time loner. hahahaha. came quietly, leave quietly. symptoms of loner. hahahaha.


then left and didnt go back to school. no more lessons for me. played bball at sportshall with guys. sweat like anything. then go back hall. cold like anything. i was apparantly drenched by my sweat and the hall was damn fucking cold. HAHAHAHA. then crapped with people. then talk halfway i said "chibye kia" quite loudly and mr toh turned and look at me. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.


had a slight fever in the afternoon. napped and i recovered. HAHAHAHAHAHA.



shall not miss spider-man 3. will go watch. and pirates. hahahaha. heard from vincent its really cool. hahahaha.


this few days my house abit weird. the electricity keep tripping. shou bu liao. LOL.



is it still love? or is it other thing else that is near love? big fat question mark above my head. HAHAHAHA. AINT I CUTE? hahahahahaha.



-------i love you-------<3s




Sunday, May 27, 2007 ;
ALL THE BEST FOR TOMORROW!!! for those who are taking the Chinese O level paper tomorrow. LOL. hope i won't flunk it. hahahahaha. JIAYOU!

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life seem so... nothing to me. interesting happenings happened, but they werent interesting enough for me. my handphone has no life. my computer gives me problems. ARGH. what a fuckening life.

ever since then, everything seems so quiet. be it weekends or weekdays. its all the same. sigh.

every now and then, everything that i have done flashes back. OMG. the feeling of being stupid and the regrets and guilts. FUCK IT! argh! so people, dont be dumb like me and decide things too fast. hais. i'm such a cb.

my grades are seriously fantastic. L1R4 = 34 and L1R5 = 43. seriously, where the fuck can i go if i get this for my O's. i am jsut a big fucking disappointment. always do the wrong things but never the right ones. ARGH!


Were it not better to forget Than to remember and regret?
-Letitia Elizabeth Landon (1802 - 1838)


i love you <3s


me and my fucking thoughts.

Saturday, May 26, 2007 ;
lost in the maze i created.

Wednesday, May 23, 2007 ;
SIGH!!! no camera phone is seriously a big big problem to bloggers like me. I HAVE NO PICTURES TO POST!!!! i got no more lame things to blog about. maybe in future will have inspiration. but not now.

went to the heritage tour about the Paranakans. did i spell correct. argh. whatever. hahaha. quite a few places that can take pictures of. BUT I NO CAMERA!!! and i don't know why half-way through the journey, i didnt felt like talking at all. just wana be alone. WHATS HAPPENING TO ME!!!! grrrrrrr.

oh yah, got my first make-up of my life. LOL. jinlong helped me appy eye-liner. its still on. LOL. previously was melissa who helped me, but failed. LOL. i look like a ass lah. jinlong was like trying to cut off my lower eye lid i think. she was hurting me lah. wapiang. hahaha.

something bad happened. and curse that person who did that bad thing. shant elaborate or say about what happened. don't ask me what happened. if i can or want to tell. i will. =)

sorry.


-----never the same-----<3s all because of me.

Tuesday, May 22, 2007 ;
sorry. only thing i can say. shant elaborate further.

thanks friends and buddies, you guys rocks!


TODAY WAS HELL LIKE BORING!!! walan!!! the lecturers were like..... chanting. wapiang.

headed home early today.


will it be the last? NO!

new path.



sorry guys, my post today is uncomprehensible. main point of this post... i love you guys! thanks for viewing my blog. ITS OVER 3000 ALREADY!!! my blog have been viewed over 3000 times since it was created. thanks. =))) will try to be lamer day by day alright? my blog's theme is LAME. hahahahahaha.


------NEVER dies------<3s

Monday, May 21, 2007 ;
hahaha. love the muscular women. shall compensate to you people a cuter post. hahahahahaha.

first i shall blog about what happeded today.

hmm. school is better today. aint that moody. moodswing once nia. HAHAHAHA. great improvement isnt it?

lecture was fun in the beginning. mr chua was quite funny lah. his jokes are lame, but people laugh. not like me. lame jiu shi lame. HAHAHAHA.

okay lah. nothing much more le. shall talk about the main topic today.




people, have you noticed something about the chinese character Kong (empty) below?

dont you think it resembles to the panda's face? hahahahaha. see for yourself alright?

AINT THAT CUTE?!?!?!?!?! hahahahahaha. at first i thought it looked like a dog. but a panda and Kong looks nicer placed side by side. hahaha.

hahaha. while looking for panda pictures, i saw this pic. hahahaha. THERES SOMETHING LIKE A PANDA DOG!!! hahahahaha.
SO KAWAII!!!!!!



hahahahaha. thats all for today. =))))))




------tomorrow-------<3s



and people, if you wana see how much i look like a girl, pleas visit chenyan's blog. i was shocked when looking at those pictures. OH MY GOD! hahahahahaha!

Sunday, May 20, 2007 ;
sorry people. my time for blogging is usually late. like around 10pm to 1 am? really sorry. thats my timetable. i also don't know why liddat. SIGH. hahahaha.

somemore i have realised that my blog is so lame. all those stuffs i blogged about. they are like... so not interesting? hahahaha. maybe i am born boring. LOL.

okay. went for my great aunt's funeral again. today is the 7th and the last day of her funeral. when i reached it was already 11 plus. and i saw my aunts with their eyes red and wet. obviously they teared.

there was a group of muscians. on clarinetist, one saxophone player, and a few percussions. GOD! the way they play. seriously. its not pleasant to the ear at all. its like, the clarinet substitude suona. the uncle was playing damn high. walan. then he kept mispitching and not following the music. he was like playing and figuring what he was playing at the same time. i was struggling there. but over all they did set the correct atmosphere lah.

then the praying goes on. the crying goes on too. we walked round the coffin to take a last look at my great aunt. and again. people burst into tears. it was so emotional. it was so damn hard to not cry. but a few of us held back our tears. i am not that close to my great aunt. i didnt actually felt much when i knew about us losing her. i was touched by the people. the grieve on their face.

this show how powerful love is. imagine having a world without love. how would it be? though love do bring us miseries. but, it brings us happiness too. isn't it? sigh. people, we really must treasure every single one person we have with us. don't regret when we lose them. losing in any form counts. seperation, death, or even break ups. really. treasure every single person that is around you. every single one of them plays a big part of your life. really. even fore bad siblings. their mistake make you learn. and make you a better person. so that next time you will not be like them. isn't it? we learn from people's mistake.

my great aunt's journey in this world ended today. when she was on her way to being cremate. everyone shouted her name. they love her. they treasure her. they miss her. sigh. everybody will pass through this. our parents or anyone might pass away one day. and we have to face the lost. the love and memory will then be the only thing left for you to have any contact with your love ones once they leave this world. sigh... thats life.



i treasure you now, i love you. <3s





alright. something more "entertaining". hahahahahaha. girls, have you thought of building muscles? if you have been through those thoughts, here are some pictures for you to reconsider. HAHAHAHAHAHA.



































hahahaha. having any second thoughts before you really start going to gym and build up? HAHAHA. do think twice alright. *winks*



AND AND AND!!! new idol! hahahahahhaa. her name is... Yuko Ogura. She's a model in japan. NOT a pornstar. not everygirl from japan is a pornstar alright? HAHAHAHA.


she's cute right? hahaha. say yes! =))










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Mary J. Blige - Be Without You

I wanna be with you, need to be with you
(Oh, oh, oh, oh)
gotta be with you
(Oh, oh, oh, oh)

Oooo (oh, oh, oh, oh) oooo
Chemistry was crazy from the get-go
Neither one of us knew why
We didn't deal nothing overnight
Cuz a love like this takes some time
People start off as a phase
Said we can't see that
Now from top to bottom
They see that we did that (yes)
It's so true that (yes)
We've been through it (yes)
We got real sh** (yes)
See baby we been...Too strong for too long
(and I can't be without you baby)
And I'll be waiting up until you get home
(cuz I can't sleep without you baby)
Anybody who's ever loved,
ya know just what I feel
Too hard to fake it,
nothing can replace it
Call the radio if you just can't be without your baby

I got a question for ya
See I already know the answer
But still I wanna ask you
Would you lie? (no)
Make me cry? (no)
Do somethin' behind my back and then try to cover it up?
Well, neither would I, baby
My love is only your love (yes)
I'll be faithful (yes)
I'm for real (yes)
And with us you'll always know the deal
We've been...Too strong for too long
(and I can't be without you baby)
And I'll be waiting up until you get home
(cuz I can't sleep without you baby)
Anybody who's ever loved, ya know just what I feel
Too hard to fake it, nothing can replace it
Call the radio if you just can't be without your baby

See this is real talkI'm always stay (no matter what)
Good or bad (thick and thin)
Right or wrong (all day everyday)
Now if you're down on love or don't believe
This ain't for you (no, this ain't for you)
And if you got it deep in your heart
And deep down you know that it's true
(come on, come on, come on)
Well, let me see you put your hands up (hands up)
Fellas tell your lady she's the one
(fellas tell your lady she's the one, oh)
Put your hands up (hands up)
Ladies let him know he's got you locked
Look him right in his eyes and tell him
We've been...Too strong for too long
(and I can't be without you baby)
And I'll be waiting up until you get home
(cuz I can't sleep without you baby)
Anybody who's ever loved, ya know just what I feel
Too hard to fake it, nothing can replace it
Call the radio if you just can't be without your baby

Heeeeeeeeeeeey OhhhhhhhhhhhhhHeeeeeeeeeeeey Ohhhhhhhhhhhhh
I wanna be with you, gotta be with you, need to be with you
I wanna be with you, gotta be with you, need to be with you
I wanna be with you, gotta be with you, need to be with you
I wanna be with you, gotta be with you, need to be with you
I wanna be with you, gotta be with you, need to be with you



-----I Love You-----<3s

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hmmm. went to play bball in the morning we lost. by 3 points. LOL. and there was some kaobei guy. shall not elaborate. LOL.

so fucking suey. the game just started got less than a minute and i slipped and landed on my knee. then bleed. grrr. what a fucked up life i have. hahaha.

went to eat with the guys. i was damn high. i dont know why. i just can stop dancing. hahaha. we gay-ed around. did dumb things. i was such a disgrace. hahahaha.

went to my great aunt's funeral. then headed home around 12 plus.

-----obvious. oblivious-------<3s


it became so complicated all because of me. it was simple and nice. it is all my fault. as days passes, my heart pumps even harder. will the door open for me to walk through to a happy life? or will it stay shut and i have to search hard another door? sigh. you, i love <3s

Friday, May 18, 2007 ;
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btw! people! question 6 that blank is <3s. yahh. SORRY!!! i dont know what happened too! for those who did already. so sorry. i will add 5 marks each. HAHAHAHA.

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practically i dont know who there are. but do you notice? they all have spastic face like me. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!

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alright alright. i never blog for 2 days nias and people like junyin miss me liao. HAHAHAHAHA.

but seriously, theres nothing for me to blog. my dumb W850I went againt me and i sent it for repair. no phone, means no camera, means no pictures to post. its like, no pictures de post very bored, to me. because my command of english not good at all. HAHAHAHA.

ohh yahh. talking about english. I FAILED ALL PAPERS! except chinese and art. hahaha. art i got 50/100 which can be counted as fail lah. LOL. and i can laugh somemore. how great. i should jump off the building lohh. wapiang. a big disappointment, i am.

alright. lessons resumed. and, i practically slept through all. thats the only way to avoid all those moodswings i get. for your sake and everyone's. i dont wana attitude anyone. everyone is nice. =))

today performed for 25 kinder garden kids. they are cute. LOL. they queue up and putting their hands on the shoulder of their class mate infront. so kawaii!!! last time we also liddat. TU TU TRAIN. remember? hahahaha.

practically. everything just screwed up.


i seriously am afraid. <3s







CAN SEE? walao. my new idol Michael Jackson was so handsome in the past lah!! SOBS!! people, accept how and what you are bahs. thats fate. if you are born liddat, so be it. you are still a human, a life. you still go through years on Earth. that appearance thing might affect things. but, what matter most is the heart. isnt it? sigh... feel so emo now. my day was so horrible. even the dream i make it class was so sad. sigh...

I LOVE YOU

Wednesday, May 16, 2007 ;
sigh. lost the drive to blog. i don't have mood to either. everything is just so bad. =((


love you.

Tuesday, May 15, 2007 ;
hahahahahahahhahahahahhaa. did something dumb today. went to bing guang's house. and did something in his room and vincent took it down.

and and and, i posted it on YOUTUBE!!!! hahahahahaha. so buey ba right? HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.


let you all laugh bahs. HAHAHAHAHAHA. heres the video. HAHAHA. and btw. do go vincent's blog today people. there are some nice collections of pictures there. tomorrow go also can. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA. =))))))

heres the video.



hahahahahahha. LAME SHIT!!! somemore my upper body like having stroke. HAHAHAHA. i go practise more then let you guys see again. MUACKS!!!! i am so HIGH!!! hahahaha. at bing guang house now. HAHAHAHAHA. jonathan on my left and bing guang at my 8 o'clock. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. SO HIGH!!!

<3s

Monday, May 14, 2007 ;
gosh. so damn lazy to blog. nothing much to blog also. nothing much.


LOL. today was the last day of exam. played basketball with the usuals. i sort of got tanner? HAHAHAHA.


then went to eat and chit chat. LOL. was laughing all the way.


went home napped. went out alone for dinner. HAHAHA. such a loner. buey ta han.


and yah, my grand father's brother's wife passed away today. because of cancer. sigh. life is so fragile. Great aunty, rest in peace alright? love you.


its like half and hour more to 12 midnight and i am alone at home. so lonely. HAHHAHA.





----XSMT-----<3s





ohhh yahhh. that day i was watching Xiao Long Nu. You know? the small dragon girl. direct translation lah duh. ahhahaha. then the yang guo was like standing at the edge of the cliff and shouting for his gu gu, which is the xiao long nu lah. then hor. i was thinking. if now, we don't have handphone. we will also do that. hahahaha. imagine yang guo has a handphone. he no need to run up the cliff and shout his lungs out. he could just dail xiao long nu's number and ask where she is. HAHAHAHAHA. i drew 2 pictures. for fun. and its ugly. HAHAHA. RANDOM!


this is yang guo without handphone. hahahahahahhahaah.


and this is yang guo with handphone. hahaha. how lame can i get? THIS LAME! hahahaha.





we must really appreciate the technology we have now. thanks to those inventors. hahaha.



and and and, i was browsing through pictures that i took for the pass 2 years. i found one of my picture. SUPER GAY! omg. see yourself. LOL. HAHAHAHAHHA.

FUCKING UGLY! hahahahahahahha. maybe i look like this all the while. hahahaha.

THE END! hahahahahhaa.

Sunday, May 13, 2007 ;
OKAY! haven't really been blogging for past few days. LOL. hope you people did not stop reading my blog. LOL. my computer gave me some problem. didn't want to blog half-way and let my computer distroy my mood. LOL. using dad's computer now by the way. HAHAHA.


and and and,

HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY !!!!!
best wishes for every mother in this universe that beared great pain when delivering every single on of us. even to foster mothers alright? they sacrificed alot of time to take care of the children. though mums can be naggy at times. but their motive arent bad. maybe for exception cases. LOL. MOTHERS! WE LOVE YOU! hahahahaha.

&HAPPY BIRTHDAY XINYI !!!!
The Birthday Girl. Xinyi, my cousin. LOL.



let me see how i commemorated mothers' day. LOL.


first up. me, my dad and my mum went to play billlard and pool. LOL. mum did quite a few funny things that really made us bursted into laughters. HAHAHA. my mum is quite cute at times. and my dad did quite a few things to make her xia suey also. hahahaha.


dad then sent us to grandma house. aunties ordered buffet. hahaha. quite nice lah the food. ate to my fill. then i took a short nap. was quite exhausted. hahaha. then at 12 plus midnight we went out to the free space there and a cake was there. LOL. for the mothers and my cousin's birthday. HAHAHAHA.

snapped a few pictures. and guessed what happened after my grandma blew the candle. LOL.
CREAM TIME!!!! HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!

The cake with mutli-purposes. HAHAHAHA!


The Mums. hahahahhaha.

all my aunts went bonkers. HAHAHA. my mum, 2nd aunt and grandma ran into the house and hide. hahahahaha.


hahaha. even my uncle got ambused. HAHAHAHA.


My 2 craziest aunts. never stop having fun. CHILDLIKE? hahahaha.


SEE! how silly can they be. hahahaha.


the fun never stops!!! hahahahaha.

the family bonding rocks!

COUSINS! i was ambused while walking to kitchen. hahahaha.

my aunts and cousins were like chasing each another? even my uncles joined in. LOL. hahaha. i love my family. its just so fun whenever there's an special event. =)) <3



oh yah. i bought a new hamster on friday. =)) haven't named it. and i found out that Giordano hobby is only sleep and sleep. GRRR. he should go be pig bahs. no point being hamster. hahahaha. some pics for you guys to see. quite cute. =))



Giordano so KPO. HAHAHA.

NEW HAMSTER!!!


what is he looking at? HAHAHA.


KAWAII!!!!!!!


OHHH. she blends with the sand. HAHAHA.

WALAO. Giordano very fat lehs. hahaha. new hamster very cute right?


she looks fat in this picture lehs. why ars? LOL.


just one word. CUTE!


Giordano seriously knows how to sleep only. hope he won't influence the new one. hahahaha.


awwww. ain't she lovely? <3



hahahahaha. thats all. OH MY GOD!!! its already like 4 am. spent around 2 hours on this post. hahah. but i was watching television at the same time lah. LOL.

ok lah. shall end here. =))

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