msg to val - don't be so sad kays? i know you miss him. he will always be up there looking after you. no matter how suey you are. you werent really harm. like you say the flower pots. the missed you. right? i think, its him who protected you from being hurt from that flowers pots by making you slightly slower or whatever. he loves you. he misses you too. he wouldnt want to see you cry up there right? cheer up kays? i bet he is doing really fine up there.
and to people outside - FAMILY. must treasure. don't regret after you lose them. they are the ones who stayed with you for almost your whole teenage life. even if they suck badly in attitude or whatever, they still play a big part of your life. without them. there will never be a complete family. treasure them.
after exam. had no where to go. like a loser. LOL. wanted to stay in class. but got nothing to do at all lah. then went to meet up with jonathan. bingguang, and jason. hahaha. then we took a pic from a reflection. HAHAHAHA. how lame can we be? THAT LAME.......
went home. napped. then i wake up every 5 minute to sms. until 3.30. then fell back to sleep until 6.30. and went for bballing!!! hahaha. and on my way there. i apparantly assumed things by the surface but not looking deeper into it. moodswinged. but after that.. sort of cheered myself up. hahahaha.
ACHEIVEMENT FOR THE DAY : touched 213 ring. HAHAHAHAHA. WOOHOO!!!!
didnt really had the mood to play bball. then went off early with jadrien. LOL. then went to find Valerie Ong & Norlyn Choo.. then ferran came back. LOL. chit chatted. and Norlyn told me the disgusting movie she watched. and it made me dont feell ike eating. and wasted some money. HAHAHAHAHAHA.
AND AND AND!!!! Burger King went for the Spider Man theme. WOOHOO!!!! I LOVE SPIDER MAN!!!! my favourite!!!!
apprantly thats not the hand gesture for the spiderman to shoot his web. hahahahaha.
wooooo. my mushroom swiss double with extra petie. hahaha. i don't know how to spell.
then went home. slacking now. HAHAHAHA.
---Circulation---<3
aint my bag CUTE? hahahahahahahahahhaha!
my hair looks fake. WALAN. hahahahahhaa.
FRIENDSHIP - what does friendship mean? what does sisterhood, brotherhood mean? isit the heart that counts? or the existance of each person counts? does that person have to be there always to let you know you are still friends, sisters, brothers? i look things at the surface too. but. i will reflect lahh duh. what really matters is whether you are in your sisters, brothers, friends' heart. now, close your eyes. how does your sister, or brother, or friend look like? they are smiling? can you see the happy times you all went through? maybe you will see the bad times you all spent together. i don't know. think about it bahs. pls don't hurt each another anymore. =((
school was boring lah duh? lecture was worst. LOL. i feel asleep in between. then found out i missed out 2 slides already. but after that i was quite energetic liaos.
ate lunch with ferran, jonathan, and bing guang. LOL. crapped quite alot. hahaha. felt like losers. like.. nowhere to go at all.
then, headed home. felt asleep. hahaha. and sorry to those when i was msging you all and the msg were like nonsensical. coz i was half aslp while typing. then i wake up see the msg i sent. felt like a dumb arse. AHAHHAAHAHA.
woke up, and washed up. headed out to find a better environment to study. hahaha. felt so nice being alone and having some breeze from nowhere and music flowing in my ears. AHHAHAHAHA. GOOD LUCK TO PEOPLE TAKING EXAMS TOMORROW!!!!!!
thank you very much. was really surprised. super touched!
---the smell of love---<3
ignores you?
THANK YOU!!!!!
poor thing... =((
aint my name nice? HAHAHAHAHA.
zhixiong + desmond at safra arcade. they like pro. HAHAHAHA.
true enough, school ruined my birthday. LOL. moodswings and moodswings. slept through the day again.
after school went to do the CIP thingy. LOL. we don't have a block for us to collect newpapers and stuffs. so we helped the girls to move the stuffs to blk 622. hahaha. had some dumb incident. i climb up this thingy... and its wet becaused it rained. and slipped and then led to a blue black on my shine... grrr. LOL. then alex joined in to take a picture of his smelly, bandaged ankle.
LOL. thanks people! for giving me presents and wishing me. =))) thank you!!!
wall. screwed kettle. i loves. <3s.
loves for screwed kettle. <3s
hahahaha. and and and! i am back to square one. WAPIANG. hahahahahha. but its fun at times.
I LOVE WEEKENDS!!! I HATE SCHOOL!!!!
after school went to play pool and went to shaun's house slack.
dined out with hannui. amazed.
ferran. now you get what i mean right? so count urself lucky yah? thats the reason why i hate school and love weekends. cheer up boy. will help eu out. we are friends that went through quite alot too. LOL.
completed my first soduku today. LOL. still have lots to do.
went for band awhile. then went home. loner once again. then went to sunplaza alone to buy things. god. for the first time. i ate alone outside. sigh. when did i become such a loner. why? how i hope. there you are. sitting infront of me. enjoying the meal with me. but. this will never happen. how great is that.
went home. wasn't alone. was talking in the phone with someone. but. i feel so empty. did some volunteer work then went home.
i am sitting right here. waiting for you. come to me.... impossible.
藉口
词 曲 编:周杰伦
翻着我们的照片
想念若隐若现
去年的冬天
我们笑得很甜 [ i miss us ]
看着你哭泣的脸
对着我说再见
来不及听见
你已走得很远 [ I should have hold on tight to you ]
也许你已经放弃 [ I hope you did not ]
我也许已经很难回头 [ duh? ]
我知道是自己错过 [ I was dumb enough to leave you. ]
请再给我一个理由 [ The reason will be him ]
说你不爱我 [ Never want to hear ]
就算是我不懂
能不能原谅我
请不要把分手当作你的请求 [ NONSENSE ]
我知道坚持要走是你受伤的藉口 [ is it? ]
请你回头 [ waiting.. ]
我会陪你一直走到最后 [ I will never ever leave you again. I have learnt my lesson. ]
就算没有结果
我也能够承受
我知道你的痛
是我给的承诺
你说给过我纵容
沉默是因为包容
如果要走 [ NO! don't leave me. sigh... ]
请你记得我 [ Never forget me. ]
如果难过
请你忘了我 [ NONSENSE ]
I Miss Us. I Would Do Anything To Revive Our Love. Is It Even Possible? Sigh.
the reality that i want it to be a dream. and the dream that i want it to be the reality.
the never-ending love. the never-ending pain.
practically i just went to look for things to crush me.
the way you look now. i don't wish to ruin it. but i want to make it better.
i seriously messed up with my fucking cheap life.
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i just realised i became i loner. now here am i. sitting infront of my dumb com. alone at home. eating a pathetic shrooms burger meal with a box of stupid cheese fries. which total up to be $3.95. and bloody hell. its only 3pm and i am at home. thanks to myself. i have led myself to this pathetic lifestyle.
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maybe, i am just being too naive. but. the feeling is really strong. the way you look at me. i don't understand. WHY?! i think. i am just. thinking too highly of myself. i am just trying to cheat myself. am i? i don't understand. i can't explain the strong feeling. i can't describe it.
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grrrr. i can't stop editing to my post. from 3 edit till now... 5.30. have been watching the show on youtube that Ames recommended. it really cheered me up. thanks Ames. but. my mind just can't take off from you. how are you now? are you safely back home? did you like eat your dinner? where you now? are you smiling? are you having fun? and.. do you miss us? but. its quite impossible though.
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hope you didn't really injure yourself. please take care lahh. watch your footings.
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why am i so worried when i know theres someone with you.
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i gained hope that doesn't even exist. i lost hope because of everything. i simply think too much.
hopeless once again.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TOH XIN YI!!!!
i am back to square one.
went bowling and pool-ing with jamie, jinghui, jerry,vivian and siangdeng. hahahaha. SUPER FUN!!!! my pool skill wasnt tat bad lahh. HAHAHAHA. snapped some pics.
i seriously don't know what to do. its just so bloody complicated.
then after band went to causeway point with jamie, siangdeng, jing hui and jerry. hahahaha. took some pics.
CCHYSB PEOPLE!!!! jiayou tomorrow yah? i know everyone worried about the result. but thats one thing we cant decide. BUT. we can decide how we play right? tomorrow just dont make the mistakes we usually make. anticipation.... intonation.... rushing.. blah blah blah. let feel the music together. fellow band mates that are passing out this year. this is our last SYF. WE MUST DO OUR BEST!!!! rmb what mr toh say? dont hope whether eu can play that note anot. tell urself. I MUST PLAY IT!!! FEEL THE MUSIC PEOPLE!!!! JIAYOU!!!!
saw your smiles today. eu seemed really happy. i think. i should really let you go, and let you love. i will move on. don't worry. there won't be a day that we both will regret again. our love is deeply engraved on my mind, on my heart. i will never forget the happy times we went through, the hard times we went through. i decided to stop loving you and pursueing ur love for me. my dreams were always reminding me. face the fact she with him already and she's happy. i will do so. lets be happy together. LOVES.