love is just so fucking powerful. the pain you feel when you know you are losing the one you love deeply. and the pain you feel when you know you are leaving someone you love deeply. but no matter what. you still want to love that person as much as you can before you lose or leave that person.
what if one day. i just disappear from this world. i will leave this world with regrets. i never treasure the time with my love ones and never show how much i treasure their love for me.
life is just like a dream. it starts like that and ends like that. but will your dream be a meaningful one? a nightmare? or just a dull and boring dream? i would want to have a meaningful one. but, i will still have regrets. definitely.
i never have the courage to directly say how much i love this person. i dont have the right to love her, i dont deserve her love. i feel ashame of myself. very. i took this person for granted and left her. i made her tear, i shattered her heart, i ruined her fairy tale. my biggest mistake up till now was to leave her. just like that. with the most ridiculous reason. i regret. but its all too late.
its like a glass panel. once i smash it. no matter how hard i try to fix it back to the glass panel it was. it will still be damaged. filled with cracks here and there.
i love you, Norlyn. i am sorry.
mission impossible.
* sorry for being emo. just watched a korean show about a very touching love story.