today is just a bloody fucked up day.
school sucks. after school. no fucking things to do. and no fucking mood. then went to clarissa house with vincent to find sheryl they all. then. listened to all those fucked up conflicts. hate it. conflicts sucks. then went back school. and on my way back. fuck. forgot to take my wallet. and its with vincent now.
waited for jonathan and alex. jon didnt noe how serious things was. and he joked bout he. i was fucking pissed off. scolded him. sorry jon. i wasnt in the correct mood to play along with eu.
then went home. fucking moodswings. now. bloody fucked up with mother. cb. i never bring back wallet. buy what food. nabei. give me fucking attitude.
fuck lahh. seriously. i just hope all this go on and till i go bonkers. everything goes back to normal. fuck this bloody world.
*fucking decisions and consequences. have to act like a fucking happy cbk.*
--i thought, as times go. it will be better. but why is it getting worst? why day after day? i seem to lose more and more control of myself. i love you. i really am. i really regret what i have done. i really do. the pain tells me so. i have to hold back my tears so back every now and then. i really regret. i really really regret. but whats the use regretting? you have your guy. and he is sweet. a nice chap to be with. i dont know how to let go. and let eu love. my smiles are for you. do you see the pain and regret in those smiles? i noe its never possible for you to get back with me. and its impossible. i just want you to know. i am sorry for the pain i caused eu to have. and that i really loves you. but, thanks to me. eu are with him. HAHAHA. maybe thats the good consequences of the decision i made. bless you 2 xing fu. =)) ---