yups. i am not a good actor. trying to hide. but. too obvious. sorry. will practice harder to hide. eu will lead a happier life right. =))
every choice have concequences. and i got my concequence. i regret making that choice but, i have to accept the fact tat. i didnt treasure whats infront of me. but made decisions without thinking the concequences carefully. nvm. i brought this to myself. no one to be blamed. but myself. ong zhong shou. eu gona forever regret this choice. eu suck badly.
i made myself hurt. made myself know things i dun wan to know. just to hurt myself. and mayb act like i have got over with it. but. was exposed. CRAP. LOL. nvm. the main reason is. i wana bring forward the retribution i am surpose to get.
i finally have got what i have always deserved. =)) hurts though. LOL.
just now i saw a tv serial de sub-titles.... it said, " let go, and let her love. '' in chinese... "fang shou ba, rang ta qu ai. " . can i do this. i must. =))
bless her. for everything. bless her. to be happy. bless her. to slowly lose a fucked up friend like me. bless her. to lead a better life than the life i gave her. bless bless bless. what i do is to say all this crap.
a fucked up cbk, i am.