woke up at 6+. thoughts slapped me awake. messages blew me off. was day-dreaming while bathing. the fustration, the guilt, the regrets, the sad. the sins i have done. what a good way to start my morning.
[ but.. finally i am being truthful to myself ]
as usual. took the free ride by vivian's mum to school. really appreciate that. =))
i didn't talk for the whole ride and even after i reached the school. isolated myself. went to buy a bottle of mineral water and went to chat with vivian, jinghui & jerry. OHH. i sort of cheered up abit after talking & craking lame "jokes". LOL.
1st 3 periods were all Miss Kaur's lessons. YAY! i did my work. for the 1st time. thanks to norlyn for reminding. our dear Miss Kaur was pleased! LOL. only 4 students.. for the very 1st time, did not do their work. she added...... "Even some of my lazy bums did my work.." hmm. satisfaction is the thing eu acheive knowing eu did ur work. LOL.
art... busy walking ard art room. staring at the pages of the art books. took a nap... and... ITS RECESS!!!!
ate the usuals.
maths time. not quite sure what i did. i dun tink i was really paying any attention.. day-dreaming again i guessed.
then its chinese. listened to mr yip for ard 1 period. and it was getting too boring. i took out jinlong's book to read. quite touching lahh that book. then i tink i napped a little.
chemistry.. hmm. not bad. learnt things. this is the 2nd day i actually paid attention to chem thru out last year and this year. hahaha. i am a turned over new leaf. ok. thats lame.
after school had maths remedial. learnt vectors.... blah blah blah. then went home. didnt really have any mood to go for sectionals. think i disappointed some ppl. sorry guys.
i didnt go straight home. i went to some place. some where i didnt go for months. some where where countless things happened dere. my life. was filled with colours when i was dere. i went back dere. i did not have courage to walk the direct route. i took a big round. i, felt fear. fear to see things i wouldnt want. i did wat i planned to do. i rushed home after tat. the fear is suffocating me. i regretted.
-Big Sinner-